Preparing

Well, the days are coming closer to leaving for Liberia. Many people ask me if I am nervous, I say,"Of course." Nerves are a good thing, I think they keep you on your toes and help not to let your guard down. But, I have a peace about me as well and that is all because of God. I know that He will be with me. He got Noah through the flood, He sent a lamb to Abraham, He protected Daniel in the lion's den, He was with David when he fought Goliath, so I know that He will get me to Liberia and back. I am a worrier my nature:), many times Mike has had to tell me "Quit worrying about everything, it will be taken care of." He is right, everything is being taken care of. God has put everything into place for me, even down to getting a very good substitute for me at work that is very excited about subbing for me. Am I saying that I won't be sad to leave "my guys"? Of course not. I love "my guys" and will miss them more than they will ever know, besides God, they are my life. But, am I also teaching my boys about following God, you bet. I feel like I am teaching them that actions speak louder than words. Meaning if I say I trust God, then why don't I trust Him with my life. Should everyone go to a third world country to prove that they trust God? No you don't have to, but God does put different things in different peoples' lives to see if they will trust Him. This is just what he put in our path. I have had different people that have been very supportive and I say thank you, because I don't know what I would've done without it. But I have also had different people not support me. People that have said some very mean and hurtful things about what I am doing, or even made fun of us for what we are doing. People that I have been there for in times past even when I didn't necessarily agree with what they were doing, that when it is their turn to do the same back, weren't there for us. But, I sit here and think, what about Jesus and what He went through. His own disciples disowned him and sold him out for some money. How that must have broken His heart. He was tortured and abused by the same people that he healed and fed and gave His heart to, He in turn gave His life for those same people. So I say that I can take the criticsm that is thrown at me for this. We are told in the Bible to go and spread God's word, and that means to the orphans and needy as well. If the only perfect person was beaten and made fun of and hung on a cross to die, then I can take the ridicule for doing what He has asked of me. These are just some of my thoughts. I will not dwell on the negative any longer, I see what I am going for, our little girl and to spread God's love. I know what I see will change me forever, and thank you God, because what type of person would I be if it didn't. When I hold her for the first time, I will never be able to describe for you what it will be like, I think about it every day and I know that she is worth it. God loves her just as much as He does me or anyone else. Wouldn't each of you go to the ends of the Earth for your children and God? Yea, that's what I thought :).